When did you become so important to me?
Your name was such a small word. A pill, easily swallowed
Only it didn’t leave me; travelled to the epicentre,
Burrowed itself in my heart
A seed taking root in fertile earth
I didn’t notice for so long; it was only when
The pain of being around you became unbearable
I couldn’t see it, I didn’t know
But the seedling had grown and grown and filled
All the space. Nowhere left to go
So it split my heart wide open
I noticed then, but too late to do anything:
Already an unstoppable force
Bursting through my flesh, ripping me to shreds
Splintering my bones. Ruining me.
I am broken by you, you have undone the tendons
That knitted me together
My skin peeled off, my tender flesh exposed
For the world to see.
These wounds I bear belong to you.
You’re making me live, and you kill me slowly.